Honestly, I have never cared what other people think of me....still don't. I know that makes some of my friends mad and well they can shove it. Today after hanging out with 4 people I havn't seen in 2 years...reminded me...I'm still the ugly one. Nothing about me has changed personality wise...but I have gotten even uglier. All my friends have cute pictures all over their house or their myspace....not me....I suck at taking pictures...I don't look good in person and to hell if a camera is going to help me. I wish I was pretty, I wish that I could like who I am....maybe I need to listen to people, and conform into what they want....how they want me to act, what I'm "suppose" to wear....but I love being who I am.....but lately it just isn't good enough for me. When I get ready everyday....I shower...get dressed....and never once look in the mirror. I hate that thing. I started hateing it about 2 years ago after getting in a fight with a friend and them saying.... No one is ever going to marry you, I mean hell just look at you.
I hate life today. I think I may just roll over and pass out.....because good mood....has left me some time ago.
Why is so hard to be happy these days???
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