Me?

Is it completely horrible for me to want attention? For something to be about me for a change? Will I ever get what I want? I wish I was happy again. I wish I had friends (other then Stacy) that would actually care about me, and know that I'm hurting. We lost our basketball game yesterday 24-25, it was a good game. Practice tomorrow. I'm making the girls shirts. I've finished theirs actually, now I'm working on my sisters and her friends. I found out why one girl on my team is my favorite. She reminds me of me, and I hope Olivia will grow up to be just like her. I miss working, kinda....at times I hate it. I wish I could coach, all the time. Maybe I should be a PE coach....but it would have to be JR high. I don't think I could think of things to do with Elementary kids....5-6 grade is easy...but not younger. I wish Jon was off. I'm afraid he is getting tired of me :-/ I don't know what to do. Life is hard, and is not on my side lately.